dance party

today was the best day.
celebrating the life i have made,
i enjoy.
thank you to my children for giving me have this holiday.
it was great.
so often i feel that motherhood is thankless.
and redundant,
but today, i got the card, they both wrote thier names.
melted my heart.
an actual representation of my work, from the last 5 years.
is apparent.

faith, not fate

have you ever been pulled. by a force. not begining within you? to an end? a circumstance?

or the right ending?

the ends do not justify the means, but you are pulled to an ending?

i have been pulled, a few times i feel it is selfishness.

a few times, it is not.

out of my control, the ending of things.

the culminations.

the results.

i feel pulled by both fate, and faith. they pull in different directions.

one is good.

the other is vanity.